it’s 7:21 am and i am incredibly awake. i don’t want to be awake. at all. i can’t sleep when Darren isn’t here and honestly, this last week has been a struggle to sleep even when he was here.i’ve been up most of the night and i just give up on trying to lie to myself and tell myself that i’ll sleep at all.

i’m going to get up and clean the kitchen and do some laundry because i think if i lay here any more i’ll just cry.

sometimes i don’t understand what i’m supposed to be at 29 years old. i still feel like a child.

i couldn’t even turn the lights off properly last night because i was too afraid to be alone. i slept with one of his shirts just so i could smell him if i needed extra comfort.

i have to get up now.


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Posted On: Sun, Feb. 05, 2012
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  1. zess said: Being a “grown up” is odd. I sure don’t feel like it, well, EVER.
  2. five-moments posted this